I grow weary of the journey. When I started this expedition my goal seemed close and easily reached. The summer day was bright and clear. The path was broad, straight, and well marked. I started the quest confident in coming to the end with the Golden Fleece held high.
But now I am bloodied, muddied, scratched, and footsore. The storm clouds rolled in before I made the first bend and temporality hid the briars that grew across the way. It seems that every time I overcome one obstacle, another one shows up. I do not mind jumping through all the hoops, we all have to that. It's part of the rites of passage so that we can emerge on the other side victorious members of an elite group. But lately, just when I am about to go through the next hoop, it gets jerked out my way. For example, I set up my interview with a seasoned school counselor early so that I would have plenty of time to get it done. But then three times she had to cancel on me. It was not her fault or my fault, just those crisis that spring up when you least expect it. So the interview was not ready. The very next day I find out that another counselor is coming to my unit. I called him and set up an interview with him. However, the principal was out sick the next day and I had to cover meetings on the unit. This means I missed the chance to talk to him. So I met him the next day. We had a good talk and I got some good information from him. I wrote my paper and it was received well. But I lost 30% of the grade because it was late. No complaints there, them's the breaks.
Tonight, I was scheduled to take a test on line. Just after I answered the second question, I lost my internet connection. Since the test was set up so that you could not go back to change an answer, the test considered it self completed. So the best I did was 2 out of 50 questions. I tried to call and e-mail the professor, but I could not get in touch with her. Not instead of sitting here relieved that the test is over, I have another problem. I don't know how we'll work this out, but I know we will.
But I am tired. I just want to call it quits. I wonder if it is all worth it. But the summit is in sight and it would be ridiculous for me stop now. Because I have been to the mountain top and I like it up there. So I'll camp here for the night and continue on in the morning.
1 comment:
Dad,
I'm sorry that things are so frustrating for you right now. I really hope it gets easier. I remember all the hoops I had to get through to get through school, and it's just so depressing sometimes. But I'm sure that no matter what they throw at you, you'll be able to persevere and come through the other side. I love you.
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