Today I Will Cry

It's not like I haven't cried all this week, I have, just as so many around me have. This past week we have suffered a major catastrophe. My best friend, (that doesn't come close to describing the bond between us ), Alan Nordheim, found his son dead in his apartment. Jon was only 30 years old. No,we do not know the cause of death yet. We may never know, it isn't important. The important thing is that someone we love is gone from us for now.

I have cried many times this past week. I have cried for Jon because a life of so much potential has been cut short just when a boy was beginning his journey as man. All those things that we progress through as life unfolds have been taken from Jon. There will be no meeting of that one special person who you will grow old with. That one person who knows all of your stories and all of your secrets because they were with you when you lived them. And still love you because they knew that those are the things that make you the person they love more than anything. He will never see the look of shear joy, love, and pride when he shows his parents his new child, their new grandchild. That is gone forever.

I have cried because there is an empty hole in my life where Jon used to be. I love forever. Once you are in my heart, you are there for all time. No matter what. I can love through perfection and fault. It is hard for me to let go.

But, I guess I have cried the longest, the hardest, and the most for my friend. It hurts so much to see him and his family hurting like I have never them hurt before. And as anyone knows, there is not a thing I can do about it.

So, today during the visitation I will cry with them. Tomorrow when we lay Jon to rest I will cry with them. As the time it takes for the hurt to fade goes slowly by we will cry some more. It will just another thing that binds us together.

But we will never forget our Jon. Rest easy Jon, you're in good hands.

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